Majestic Beauty!
Photo by Michael Darling

Title: Forever

You were the sunshine and the moon,
You are my heart and soul,
I see passion in your eyes,
Why is this a big surprise,
There was a time I could not say it,
But now I am inside your arms,
I just want you to know,
I tried to tell it everyday,
But life is a crazy place,
I wanted to tell you,
That I loved you,

All the times we shared,
Alone in each others arms,
I thought of how I loved you,
And how I would tell you,
Each and everyday we spend together,
Makes me love you even more,
It was hard to be apart from you,
But there is one thing I want you to know,

But we are faced together,
Through he pain and the hurt,
I will stand in your arms,
I never thought a day would come,
When I would leave you,
And I hope that day never comes,
I want to spend my life with you,
There is this something I want to say,
So look into my eyes as I hold you close,
I say again there is something I want to say,
And that is I love you and always will I stay.

Title: The Day my Heart Died

My life is down,
I was up at one point,
But now I am drowning,
She was my life,
Changed my view,
But now they are back,
I was warm at one point,
I was not cold and heartless,
She picked me up when I was down,
She brought a smile from me when there was only a frown,
She said she loved me,
I remember lying together watching tv,
I remember late nights talking,
Going to the movies,
Walking hand in hand,
Talking together and making some plans,
I treated you right,
And never put up a fight,
Sat under a starry cold might,
I gave my jacket for you to stay warm,
I only came when you called,
I put aside my life for you,
You said that you loved me,
It was all a lie,
Alone I was,
Neglected and ignored,
Ruining a think I thought was for sure,
Old habits picked up,
I showed my heart,
And all I got was a door,
We’re no more,
I would have shed a tear,
But I couldn’t care,
Never again will I be hurt,
Alone forever if I must be,
Alone without you I will be,
Cold and empty,
But wanting it that way,
I will admit simply,
You were the closest to me at the time,
I will miss you,
And I am glad you were mine.

Title: Just Friends

When I look at you,
I only smile,
You worry for me and possibly care,
But I truly care for you,
Perhaps even you love,
I am not sure if it’s real,
I am not sure of many things,
Special you are to me,
Why won’t you tell me?
Are you scared?
Or do you not care?
I might want a relationship,
But friends we will remain,
We are too good at that I guess.

Title: Zero Hope

A razor blade,
A knife,
A pin
My pain and strife,
Depression and hatred,
My lack of vision to see the truths in my life,
A lonely bed,
A world without a wife,
Heartfelt expressions of sincere loneliness,
Lone in an urban jungle amongst the urban wildlife,
Suicidal tendencies thoughts and feelings,
Feeling insignificant like a common lowlife,
Alone in dark and distance rooms,
With only a razor blade
A knife
A pin,
My pain and strife,
Feelings of Depression and hatred,
And a unparallel wish to end my life.

Title: Confessions

A confession and a whisper,
Racing thoughts and tears in a face,
Thoughts come out,
And hearts destroyed,
The truth comes out,
A love shattered,
A friendship crushed,
A bond gone,
These are my confessions,
Nothing is left for me in this life,
Nothing at all.

Title: Sorry

What do I got to do to be heard,
Drowning in the voices,
No one hearing my words,
Lost,
More and more I know,
That no one will listen,
To anything I have to say,
But they will ignore,
The truth in my soul,
Why did it get so hard to say?
You know the feelings buried deep,
You know the feelings I have to keep,
But when did it get so hard,
To say I am so sorry,
But the words,
Get lost as they come out,
I can not tell you,
About it,
I can not even mention it,
The feelings deep inside,
Are lost to me,
Sorry just seems to be the hardest word,
What do I got to do to prove my love for you?
What do I got to for you to hear me?
Why am I am lone when I am lying next to you,
I know the feelings run deep in both of us,
But you just walk on and ignore it,
I know we were together a long time ago,
And I know I we both hurt,
What do I got to do to make you care about me?
How come I walk alone?
I stand by window looking outside,
Thinking of those times,
We shared,
But now I am still thinking,
How hard it is to tell you,
I am sorry,
Why does it have to be?
So hard to say what I mean,
Why does sorry have to be the hardest word to say,
I am sorry,
So sorry,
Why can’t I say it to you?
But you will just walk on by,
Even though we feel the same.

The rains,
Pours down,
And falls out of control,
Just like my emotions,
I feel for you,
I am sorry,
So sorry,
How can I explain why I feel this way?
Why can’t I just say I am sorry?
Why is it I can not love you,
And hold you close in my arms,
Why must I stand in the rain?
Looking in your window from the outside world,
As you stare back at me,
You do not want me no more,
All because I am sorry,
Is the hardest word.

Title: Your Fault

I want to hang my head down,
I never want to let you go,
I never want to know,
The truth behind your words,
And of all the lies you spoke to me,
Of all the false promised that you whispered to me,
Like angels and devils,
Falling in love,
A love and hate relationship,
Why did you do the things you did?
Why did you do those things to me?
I can’t help but scream,
It hurts inside so deep,
My weeping continues to wail each and every night,
The day does not bring any happiness to me,
I am drowning in myself,
The masks we wear each and everyday,
Hide the emotions and pain,
But when I am by myself,
I can not hide,
I hurt deep inside,
Alone with the ghosts in the wind,
A never ending wake,
Inside my head,
Spinning round and round,
The blood runs freely,
Down my body,
Flooding the room around me,
Drowning within my instability,
I am lost and scared,
The blood flows coldly within my veins.

The society tells me to repress,
The society tells me to suppress,
But I am screaming,
But I am crying,
I just feeling like I am dying,
That is all my insides feel like doing everyday,
I can not pick myself up,
I gash at myself trying,
To find a new reason to continue living,
The scares tell everyone I do not care,
The blood flows coldly from my arm,
My legs and my thighs,
I will continue to hate myself,
But regardless of whatever you told me,
I will not forget the lies,
And each and every tear,
That flows from my face,
Keep in mind,
That it is your fault,
All your fault,
It is your fault,
So much your fault.

And as I am lying here bleeding,
In my own pool of blood,
I am screaming that it is your fault,
And of all the lies that you told me,
Of the fake kisses you gave me,
Have ended up destroying me,
I hate you,
I never want to feel the hurt,
This is the only way,
I am alone in the dark,
There is not coming back,
The blood flows coldly out of my body,
Flooding the floor around me,
The world dims and becomes black,
My blood is the only colour I see,
I hate you so much and it is all your fault,
But you will not realize,
Exactly what you have done to me.

Title: Dead Inside

Why did things have to go like this?
I am lost in myself,
I can not pick myself up from,
The pain of life,

Who cares what,
Advice you have for me,
I do not care,
What you have to say,
Just leave me here,
To die,

I tried to have,
A life worth living for me,
But it hit me and threw me,
Back to the ground,

Who cares what you,
Have to say,
I am never getting up from here,
I do not care,
What you have to say,
Just leave me,
Go away
Let me die,
And I will just be,
A corpse,

Let me go,
Let me lie,

Each day that passes,
Everyone walks by,
And steps on me,
And crushes,
My spirit,
And I do not care anymore,
I don’t care what you have,
To say to me,
I don’t care,
And I will never leave my grave,
And here I will stay,
This is where I died,
And nothing will change this.