Majestic Beauty!
Photo by Michael Darling

Title: Forever

You were the sunshine and the moon,
You are my heart and soul,
I see passion in your eyes,
Why is this a big surprise,
There was a time I could not say it,
But now I am inside your arms,
I just want you to know,
I tried to tell it everyday,
But life is a crazy place,
I wanted to tell you,
That I loved you,

All the times we shared,
Alone in each others arms,
I thought of how I loved you,
And how I would tell you,
Each and everyday we spend together,
Makes me love you even more,
It was hard to be apart from you,
But there is one thing I want you to know,

But we are faced together,
Through he pain and the hurt,
I will stand in your arms,
I never thought a day would come,
When I would leave you,
And I hope that day never comes,
I want to spend my life with you,
There is this something I want to say,
So look into my eyes as I hold you close,
I say again there is something I want to say,
And that is I love you and always will I stay.

Title: The Day my Heart Died

My life is down,
I was up at one point,
But now I am drowning,
She was my life,
Changed my view,
But now they are back,
I was warm at one point,
I was not cold and heartless,
She picked me up when I was down,
She brought a smile from me when there was only a frown,
She said she loved me,
I remember lying together watching tv,
I remember late nights talking,
Going to the movies,
Walking hand in hand,
Talking together and making some plans,
I treated you right,
And never put up a fight,
Sat under a starry cold might,
I gave my jacket for you to stay warm,
I only came when you called,
I put aside my life for you,
You said that you loved me,
It was all a lie,
Alone I was,
Neglected and ignored,
Ruining a think I thought was for sure,
Old habits picked up,
I showed my heart,
And all I got was a door,
We’re no more,
I would have shed a tear,
But I couldn’t care,
Never again will I be hurt,
Alone forever if I must be,
Alone without you I will be,
Cold and empty,
But wanting it that way,
I will admit simply,
You were the closest to me at the time,
I will miss you,
And I am glad you were mine.

Title: Just Friends

When I look at you,
I only smile,
You worry for me and possibly care,
But I truly care for you,
Perhaps even you love,
I am not sure if it’s real,
I am not sure of many things,
Special you are to me,
Why won’t you tell me?
Are you scared?
Or do you not care?
I might want a relationship,
But friends we will remain,
We are too good at that I guess.

Title: Zero Hope

A razor blade,
A knife,
A pin
My pain and strife,
Depression and hatred,
My lack of vision to see the truths in my life,
A lonely bed,
A world without a wife,
Heartfelt expressions of sincere loneliness,
Lone in an urban jungle amongst the urban wildlife,
Suicidal tendencies thoughts and feelings,
Feeling insignificant like a common lowlife,
Alone in dark and distance rooms,
With only a razor blade
A knife
A pin,
My pain and strife,
Feelings of Depression and hatred,
And a unparallel wish to end my life.

Title: Confessions

A confession and a whisper,
Racing thoughts and tears in a face,
Thoughts come out,
And hearts destroyed,
The truth comes out,
A love shattered,
A friendship crushed,
A bond gone,
These are my confessions,
Nothing is left for me in this life,
Nothing at all.

Title: Sorry

What do I got to do to be heard,
Drowning in the voices,
No one hearing my words,
Lost,
More and more I know,
That no one will listen,
To anything I have to say,
But they will ignore,
The truth in my soul,
Why did it get so hard to say?
You know the feelings buried deep,
You know the feelings I have to keep,
But when did it get so hard,
To say I am so sorry,
But the words,
Get lost as they come out,
I can not tell you,
About it,
I can not even mention it,
The feelings deep inside,
Are lost to me,
Sorry just seems to be the hardest word,
What do I got to do to prove my love for you?
What do I got to for you to hear me?
Why am I am lone when I am lying next to you,
I know the feelings run deep in both of us,
But you just walk on and ignore it,
I know we were together a long time ago,
And I know I we both hurt,
What do I got to do to make you care about me?
How come I walk alone?
I stand by window looking outside,
Thinking of those times,
We shared,
But now I am still thinking,
How hard it is to tell you,
I am sorry,
Why does it have to be?
So hard to say what I mean,
Why does sorry have to be the hardest word to say,
I am sorry,
So sorry,
Why can’t I say it to you?
But you will just walk on by,
Even though we feel the same.

The rains,
Pours down,
And falls out of control,
Just like my emotions,
I feel for you,
I am sorry,
So sorry,
How can I explain why I feel this way?
Why can’t I just say I am sorry?
Why is it I can not love you,
And hold you close in my arms,
Why must I stand in the rain?
Looking in your window from the outside world,
As you stare back at me,
You do not want me no more,
All because I am sorry,
Is the hardest word.

Title: Your Fault

I want to hang my head down,
I never want to let you go,
I never want to know,
The truth behind your words,
And of all the lies you spoke to me,
Of all the false promised that you whispered to me,
Like angels and devils,
Falling in love,
A love and hate relationship,
Why did you do the things you did?
Why did you do those things to me?
I can’t help but scream,
It hurts inside so deep,
My weeping continues to wail each and every night,
The day does not bring any happiness to me,
I am drowning in myself,
The masks we wear each and everyday,
Hide the emotions and pain,
But when I am by myself,
I can not hide,
I hurt deep inside,
Alone with the ghosts in the wind,
A never ending wake,
Inside my head,
Spinning round and round,
The blood runs freely,
Down my body,
Flooding the room around me,
Drowning within my instability,
I am lost and scared,
The blood flows coldly within my veins.

The society tells me to repress,
The society tells me to suppress,
But I am screaming,
But I am crying,
I just feeling like I am dying,
That is all my insides feel like doing everyday,
I can not pick myself up,
I gash at myself trying,
To find a new reason to continue living,
The scares tell everyone I do not care,
The blood flows coldly from my arm,
My legs and my thighs,
I will continue to hate myself,
But regardless of whatever you told me,
I will not forget the lies,
And each and every tear,
That flows from my face,
Keep in mind,
That it is your fault,
All your fault,
It is your fault,
So much your fault.

And as I am lying here bleeding,
In my own pool of blood,
I am screaming that it is your fault,
And of all the lies that you told me,
Of the fake kisses you gave me,
Have ended up destroying me,
I hate you,
I never want to feel the hurt,
This is the only way,
I am alone in the dark,
There is not coming back,
The blood flows coldly out of my body,
Flooding the floor around me,
The world dims and becomes black,
My blood is the only colour I see,
I hate you so much and it is all your fault,
But you will not realize,
Exactly what you have done to me.

Title: Dead Inside

Why did things have to go like this?
I am lost in myself,
I can not pick myself up from,
The pain of life,

Who cares what,
Advice you have for me,
I do not care,
What you have to say,
Just leave me here,
To die,

I tried to have,
A life worth living for me,
But it hit me and threw me,
Back to the ground,

Who cares what you,
Have to say,
I am never getting up from here,
I do not care,
What you have to say,
Just leave me,
Go away
Let me die,
And I will just be,
A corpse,

Let me go,
Let me lie,

Each day that passes,
Everyone walks by,
And steps on me,
And crushes,
My spirit,
And I do not care anymore,
I don’t care what you have,
To say to me,
I don’t care,
And I will never leave my grave,
And here I will stay,
This is where I died,
And nothing will change this.

Title: No one loves me...

No one knows what it is like,
To think about death,
To think about suicide,
To wish you weren’t around,
I stand alone in the dark,
Praying someone will come to me,
I have stood alone,
I have cried at home,
Cause I am,
Alone inside,
No one knows what it is like,
To try,
To say I love you,
It is impossible,
To control,
The feelings deep inside,
But I try,
To move along,
But I fall down,
And I am lonely,
No love inside,
No one knows that I hide,
From the sunlight,
From the people,
From my life,
My dreams are beyond my grasp,
I have tried,
I have lied,
Committed evil,
And wished to die,
No one wants to hold,
Me close to them,
They cringe away,
Cause I am a monster,
No one wants to say,
They love me,
Because they do not,
Want to lie,
But I felt,
I could continue,
But I fell right back down,
There was no one,
Only darkness,
To wrap me up inside,
Alone with only my pride,
Alone by my side,
No one knows what it’s like to cry,
Without someone to comfort you,
To think they are alone,
And ready to die,
There was a point,
I was a happy child,
And I thought that would never change,
But through my life,
I learned the word strife,
And learned the truth,
No one knows what it is like,
To look in court,
And be rejected,
No one knows what it is like,
To feel alone,
Because their father,
Doesn’t want them,
But I will continue,
To live and look ahead,
I don’t care if live,
I don’t care if die,
I will just,
Push on alone,
In the rain.

Title: Soul

I am so in love with you,
But you walk on by,
And forget,
That I am right beside you,
Seems,
You will not look at me,
Will not touch me,
And despite what I do,
You keep walking on by,
And leaving me,
You don’t care about me,
But I keep telling you,
That I love you,
But you do not hear,
A single,
Word that I say,
Why,
Do you break up,
And then turn around make up,
With fools,
Do you not realize?
That I am perfect for you,
Do you not realize?
How much I care for you,
I just want,
To come together,
And stay together,
Love you forever,
But,
You walk right by,
Leave me alone,
And heartbroken,
So I wait for you to see me.

Title: Leaving

How,
Without you,
Alone,
How,
Without you,
Dying alone,
How,
Tell me how,
Why am I,
Please take me back,
Why did you go,
I always tried,
I never lied,
But you don’t want me back,
How,
Did you think to leave me,
How,
Did you think to hurt me,
Why,
Are you doing this,
Why,
How did I hurt you?
Free,
My lonely condition,
Tell me,
That you still care like I do,
I will go crazy,
Don’t leave me,
Just stay here with me,
Alone I try,
When you said you loved me,
I know it don’t mean a thing,
Searching for the words,
But you will never realize,
I do not know why I want you to stay,
But,
I must go on,

Title: I thought of you

I thought of you,
As I starred outside,
I thought of you,
But I know it is not worth it,
You left me,
And moved on with your life,
You forgot,
How much I cared inside,
I did not try,
To tell you until you left my side,
By that time you never cared,
Because there was only tears in your eyes,
I tried so many times to tell you,
But the words were hard to say,
I tried so many times,
But it is hard either way,
You never could look me straight into my eyes,
Cause the pain was so deep,
And the truth was never there,
There was never a time you really cared,
Why do I look back?
Why do I try to live my life?
I am confused about the words,
And the feelings deep inside,
There was a point,
When I knew,
Where exactly I was to go,
But now I am so lost,
And losing control,
Who knew the pain from this lost love?
Would stalk me into the night,
And leave me alone,
Who cares about you?
Well,
I really do,
I just want to hold you,
And make love to you,
But late as it,
The truth will never come,
And to this day there is only thing left I do,
And that is sit in the darkness,
Writing about you.

Title: I will not

The sun,
Disappears into the horizon,
Over the horizon,
I stand alone in the darkness,
As it falls around me,
I won’t die,
I won’t sit down,
I will fight,
I will yell,
I will shout,
Nothing will hold me back,
This night,
I will continue,
Regardless of my feelings,
I remember,
When we were together in your bed,
But never will I…
Never will I go back,
I will not sit back,
I will shout,
I will yell,
I will scream,
I will not sit back,
And let you put me down,
I will stand I will fight,
I don’t care what you say,
I will never stop I will continue,
The darkness falls around me,
The darkness consumes me,
I fell from my perch,
Never to climb again,
I fell from,
My perch and I am bleeding,
Bleeding,
Dying,
Without you,
I can not think of,
A moment I can,
Forget you, but am not,
Coming home,
Never coming back,
You could not hold me,
Never kissed me,
I will not stop and die,
I will continue and push,
I don’t care if you do not,
I am never coming back,
I won’t look back,
The darkness consumes me,
But I will scream only how much I love you.

Title: Eyes

Eyes - By Michael Christopher Darling Eyes,
Piercing my soul,
Entering my life,
Changing,
Two sets,
Blood flows,
Blood debt,
Blood feud,
Never in,
Or out,
Life being a test,
I put down and forget the rest,
Stand tall,
Go further,
Confined,
I look down upon myself,
Curse,
Insult,
Wishing I could die,
Wishing I wasn’t alive,
Wishing for things,
I cannot speak or say,
Not knowing where to do,
Not knowing what to do,
Crossroads,
In the middle,
Fried in the mind,
Fried in the eyes,
Dark and ever seeing,
Dark and always watching me,
Not knowing where to turn,
They are behind me,
They are ahead of me,
They are all around me,
What about the times,
What do I do,
Eyes piercing,
Eyes going,
Following for the rest of my life.

Title: Who do I love?

Wishing for a change,
Hoping for a life,
Oblivious to the truth,
Dying from heartache,
In trouble from inner turmoil,
Lying to myself,
Old fashion,
Violence blinded by a soul,
Everyone hurts sometimes,
I tried my best,
Died in the end,
Only then did they realize,
No one was their enemy,
Only then did they realize,
Tonight was going to change,
Knots in my heart,
Now it is clogged,
Only to appear in another dream,
Wishing I was alive,
Breathing the existence of stars,
Utterly lost in the scene,
Too many go by,
I am stuck in another world,
Hoping to get back,
Only then do I realize,
People hate me,
Enemies from within ourselves,
Silhouettes of ourselves,
Honesty is the guide,
Ending all the feuds,
Falling face first,
In a bottomless pit,
Nothing else matters,
Dying is but sin,
Singled out among many,
My life means nothing,
Even I am lost.

Title: Heartbroken

Why do good things have to go away?
Why did you leave me?
So many nights,
I was alone,
Thinking of you,
Why did you go?
And break my heart,
I was good to you,
I tried everything
I know something,
Is not right here,
I told you I loved you,
I told how felt,
But you ignored it,
And walked out that door,
What did I tell you?
Each and every night,
I told you,
I loved you,
But you left in the rain,
Drenching and wet
With nothing,
Why did you leave me?
Cold and sick,
Alone in this life,
After I loved you,
Is love lost to me?

Title: Rain

Why does it always rain on me?
I been alone ever since I was a young teen,
I used to watch the clouds go by,
Down on my knees screaming why,
In the dark or in the light,
No one near or a soul in sight,
Every time I bothered to try,
The words they spoke always made me cry,
I always tried to fit in,
With friendly gestures and a wide eye grin,
Is this the world we live?
Kindness lost and none willing to give,
They all walk on by,
I scream I want to die,
Who really cares anymore?
Set me on fire,
Take me to a place much higher,
No one appreciates those nights and dreams,
Which side am I within this army of teams?
There isn’t any sunshine in all this rain,
The only emotion I feel is pain.

Title: I gave you my heart

I gave you my heart,
And I gave you everything,
But when I came home,
You were not there,
So I thought I lost you forever,
You left without a sign,
But it was not forever,
It was just for the rest of my life,

And so ends out story,
You gone out the door,
Left during the day,
When I was not home,
You took only your things,
Left not even a message,
No words of comfort,
You left me alone,
But it was not forever,
It was just for the rest of my life,

The mornings came,
The evenings went,
I sat on the porch,
Hoping again,
I couldn't think,
I lost all control,
And the words kept playing,
Deep down in my soul

We are no more,
Nothing left of them,
He left in the morning,
And I do not know why,
And now I am alone,
I thought it was for ever,
You left our home,
For something better,
I am sad and alone,
Crying on the floor,
This is not forever,
But only,
The rest of my life.
I am alone,
For the rest,
The rest of my life.

Title: Caged

The only thing that’s real,
Is the pain?
I won’t smile anymore,
The pain is hard to contain,
My name means nothing anymore,
What will I do?
What have I become?
So many jumbled thoughts,
I cry from day to night,
I know I am not the only one,
Who feels like that.
But with each passing day,
I feel the weight of the trouble,
Weighing my actions down,
Pulling me closer to the ground,
Bring back the nights that I didn’t have to cry,
Why must I be sad?
Why must I hate?
I cry so many nights,
There are a thousand words I could say,
To express how I really feel,
But who cares?
All I can do is sit here,
Try to be strong,
Driving myself insane,
The truth of it all,
Is blinded to everyone.
Let me be free,
Let me bask in the sun,
Without a carefree thought,
Without the troubles of life,
The light is so bright,
I see it from my window,
Will I ever be allowed in it?
How will I act?
I am stuck here,
In the dark corner,
Let me out,
How will I act?
When I am free?

Title: You are gone

What do I know of loss?
I know it too much,
How can I say?
I miss you so much,
The feelings buried,
Deep inside,
Are hard to express,
To you,
But you are gone,
Out of my life,
You left me for some reason,
Left me to cry,
And wonder what you,
Do with your life,
But you are gone,
And out of my life.

I remember those times we use to sit,
Starring out the window,
Thinking of everything,
I would hold you,
And hold you so close,
And tell you how much,
I loved you so.

But now I sit,
Alone in my chair,
Without you breathing in my face,
Loving me only,
The same ever since we first met.

I remember a time,
When I was so cold,
So lonely at night,
Homesick and alone,
You came to me,
And lied by my side,
You gentle humming,
Put me gently asleep.

But everyday I look at your pictures,
And feel the emptiness deep inside,
You were my love,
My friend,
My idol my life,
But now you are gone,
And out of my life.

Now everyday I stare outside,
Stand on the porch wishing you were inside,
Search the distance,
Praying you are,
Close and wanting to be my side,
You pictures are all I have left of you,
The times and the memories,
I really miss you.

I remember a time,
When I gave up,
On life and on love,
And my feelings to,
You took the knife from me,
And toss it aside,
You came in my areas,
And spoke to me your words,
Relieving the tension inside,
You were so warm,
And so loving,
You kept me around,
You did not wish I would die.

So everyday I sit here,
Dying inside,
Wanting to hold you,
Wanting to touch you,
There is no way,
That I can express,
The feelings about,
How I hate how you have left,
And always throughout my life,
I will miss you to death.

Title: Crossroads

In the light,
I stare into the sky,
And look deep inside,
These are the days to think of,
These are the days to look back,
These are the moments that,
Divide us,
Which path will I take?
On this road of life,
Blinded by inhibitions inside,
Where is,
The faith inside,
Where is,
My choice,
My destiny,
My pride,
I took a step,
Not wondering why,
Not thinking of where I will,
End up,
I ran,
With pride in hand,
With my life behind,
I pushed on and not even cared,
Where is,
The life in front of me,
Where is,
The decisions I will,
And the conquests,
Where is,
The consequences,
I do not care where I go,
Just as long as I do it with pride.

This is my life,
And my decisions to make,
Who cares if I drown?
Or succeed beyond my dreams,
My life is a sword,
And I swing it with pride,
No will stop me or stand in my way,
I will survive.

Title: Ocean

Where does the ocean go?
Where does it travel to?
Is it like love?
So many thoughts inside,
How many times did I go to the beach?
And look in the sun,
Far in the distance,
I put a bottle out,
With a message inside,
I hope you get it,
I hope you read what I wrote,
Shouting out in the world,
It floats my letter,
Within a bottle,
Floating,
With a question inside,
Traveling around for someone,
To find and pick it up,
And realize I am out there,
The moon above,
Is in the distance,
My soul is on a corner,
Always asking,
Turning into someone else,
My blind spot is,
Seeking someone,
With a bottle,
A bottle with a note,
Floating in a path,
Like blood through the heart,
Where does the ocean,
Where will it be?
Will someone soar to be with me?
Will someone make an effort to find me?
Is it lost?
Or is it found in the world,
Where has it gone?
In the ocean,
How will I know?
Who cares?
I don’t know,
So many thoughts and I still speculate,
Close my eyes and I know by the street corner,
The spotlights above,
And the heavens predominant,
One thought still lingers,
Where does the ocean go?

Title: Goodbye

Goodbye - Michael Christopher Darling the Time has come,
And so shalt it be,
I hear the bards singing already,
The tales I do hear,
Are of yours not me,
I stare down hard,
Long,
So long,
And think and ponder,
About old times,
I am sad they are gone,
I do not understand why,
Hell most I have run into,
I wish I did not say hi,
But they are gone,
Am I alone?
I cannot,
They are they,
They are around,
Or some of them I hear,
A voice comes so softly,
Do not fear,
All things come and go,
Live and die,
The wheel turning,
Or so it is said,
A bunch of crap,
They said they would be there,
They said they would not leave,
They said they would share a drink,
We are friends,
We were friends,
For you are no more,
To live,
To die,
To breathe once more,
There are many not here,
I am alone,
Or am I,
I am old myself,
But I see there face,
Some say I am crazy,
I must admit I feel I must finally say good-bye,
To all that were around,
To all that were once,
It is funny now,
Just the other day,
A big argument broke out,
In the middle of the play,

A sad one,
Like me was upset,
He said a few things,
Bad things,
Insulting things,
As I am,
As I do,
I listened and heard,
And heard them say,
Several bad things,
I salt repeat none,
And nevermore,
She was not,
And will not,
Ever be the reason they left,
A noble one as her,
Could not,
And would not,
So she is new,
And so she worked hard,
She earned her rank,
And thus must endure the insults and accusations,
She will thrive,
She must thrive,
I see there’s hope,
In her eyes,
In many of there eyes,
My old eyes,
Or so I think,
Have seen many in the world,
Come,
Go,
Live,
Die,
But I do not blame,
And will no accuse,
I am not jealous of another’s fortune,
I am not jealous that I am no longer good,
I am grateful,
I am glad,
So I hope,
I do miss,
I do cry,
And think back,
At the old times,
Back in the day,
The very beginning,
I was like them,
But the time has come,
And I will continue to stare,
And watch,
And listen,
I miss you yes I do,
But that is life,
Come and go,
Live and die,
I know one day,
We shall see each other again.

Title: Dead love

We are not passionate anymore,
Not in each others arms,
We always fight,
What is this coming to?
I loved you,
But now I am not sure,
It’s hurting me deep inside,
Because we were so in love,
Were not making love anymore,
We have broken apart,
We have separated,
Like two ghosts in a house,
We do not even look,
Into each others eyes,
It is so hard,
To look at you,
But I know,
What I felt was true,
I do not understand,
What happened?
So many nights,
So many days,
Why does it have to be this way?
We tried to so hard,
And now it’s futile,
We are not making love anymore,
It’s falling to the ground,
My heart and yours,
Why does it have to be this way?
I do not cry now,
Because I only want change,
I found out I do not love,
Why do I not love?
We have broken far apart,
And this will never go back,
So many people,
I must look ahead,
We are not making love anymore,
Because the spark,
Has died,
And went away,
We have to move on,
We only hurt each other,
This will only,
Make us stronger,
It is a time for change.

Title: Bound by Strings

It spins,
It turns,
And rotates never ending,
Fate playing us,
Fate choosing us,
Fate dangles us by strings,
Oh how the knife cuts the string!
The string snaps,
And it’s cut,
To release itself,
But to spin and rotate endlessly,
Drawing in all in its path,
Inhaling them,
Spinning,
I am bound by who I am,
I am bound by what I do,
I am bound by the strings,
Spinning round and round,
Endlessly throughout the day,
Throughout the night,
Let me go,
Let me see,
A knife in my hand,
Bound by the strings,
The pressure does snap,
The knife does cut,
But string binds me once more,
Fate spinning,
Rotating ever more,
Escape is possible,
But then fate would be no more,
It spins evermore,
It turns evermore,
It weaves the strings in twists,
And into an everlasting flow,
Power is within us,
The power to give us strength,
But can those strings withstand the breaking,
Or will they bind me,
They pierce at my skin,
I am free,
But inside I am not,
Spinning around is fate,
Bound to who I am,
I turn and walk the world,
But still I am trap,
Caged in my own mind,
The mind of one,
The mind of fate,
Given to me by the unknown,
Hero I am not,
Villain I am not,
Am I saying who you think I am?
I am but a puppet,
Fate is my master,
Spinning and turning over time,
I am but a ripple,
Bound by the strings,
My mind the cage,
My soul not my own,
My body a dead weight,
Bond by those strings,
Death is the key,
But is freedom worth that amount,
Fate is strange,
Fate turns like a wheel,
Never stopping,
Always plotting,
Strange as it may be,
Salvation might be with the next turning,
Or a prison waiting for its capture,
Knife in my hands,
Weight of my body,
Bond to the strings,
I am who fate says I am,
I cannot escape it,
Or deny it,
Bound to it I am,

Title: Cheating

Why did you say you are sorry?
But we both know the truth,
You really don’t care,
You dragged my heart,
Through the mud,
When I look into your eyes,
I see the truth,
Why did you do this to me?
And turn and say I love you,
I never treated you badly,
Lost and confused,
Why did you abuse me?
And the trust I had in you,
And now,
Deep inside I am crying,
The pain so real,
I feel like dieing,
What else in this life,
Do I really have to live for?
Why did you do this?
My heart just can’t take it,
It bleeds,
And I cry,
Lost in these foolish games,
Of lies, deception and heart break,
And it is tearing me apart,
I never deserved this,
But I drowning,
In pain.

Title: Alone in the Dark

Alone in the Dark - By Michael Darling


She lies in my bed,
sleeping alone,
I sit and I watch,
knowing i am alone,
Not in the cold outside,
or from a secret location,
she is in my bed,
and done so without hesitation,
but she does not want me,
And I know why,
I have hurt her so much,
and no mater how much I try,
she will never forvive me,
because of our lies,
so alone i do site,
infront of my computer,
her breathing is faith,
but fills the room carelessly,
alone on my bed,
she is sleeping,
No matter what,
I will never be close,
nor feel or touch her,
or kiss her,
So alone in my room,
typing away,
far from her heart,
not wanting to stray,
Curled in my blankets,
she sleeps in peace,
alone I am still,
hating the past,
mournful of what happened,
where would we be,
if she was by my heart,
holding me,
but alone in the dark,
is where i will always be,
alone in my heart,
even if she is sleeping beside me.

Title: A simple touch

Would we be together?
If it were different,
Would you know me?
If we were near,
Two destined stars,
So far away in the sky,
Would you believe me?
Or consider it all a lie,
Would you come to me?
If I yelled out and cried,
How would you treat me?
What do you look like?
Does that all matter,
When all we do is close our eyes,
We shall be free,
To sit in the breeze,
Alone in our arms,
The time goes from night to day,

Touch me with all your heart,
Show me the meaning of love,
Touch me with all your heart,
Show me the meaning of love,
Touch me with all your heart,
Show me the meaning of love,
Touch me with all your heart,
Show me the meaning of love,

The light above,
Is blinding,
Closing my eyes,
And dreaming of a time,
We will be together,
But it is just poetic verses in the wind,
Am I fated to live alone?
Blowing in the sea,
The tears,
The pain,
The future,
What will become of it all?
How will I understand it all?
I pray for one moment,
We can share,
And share it together.

Title: Mom

I remember when I fell from a tree,
I was about two or three,
She came to me then,
She held me tight,
Wiped the blood away,
She would smile and held me tight,
She told me I would be alright,

I remember a time,
When I was between the ages of six and nine,
She raised me with determination,
She worked for me,
She had only kindness she were never mean,
The rent was hard to pay,
But she held me tight,
She would smile as she held me tight,
She told me I would be alright,

Through the aging of time I turned sixteen,
A trouble young man; a grown up teen,
Causing trouble and scolded by the world,
No one understood what I truly was,
They just assumed I was bad,
Sometimes she didn’t want me to stay,
But she held me tight,
She would smile and hold me tight,
She told she I would be alright,

This is a time when some consider me a man,
I struggle through life doing the best I can,
I changed who I was,
Just because,
I go for a future,
But I miss all the times as a child,
When I would sit with my mom and we would play,
But she still comes,
And holds me tight,
She smiles and holds me close,
She tells me I will be alright.

Title: Old love

I once contemplated suicide,
But all I could picture is my mother’s eyes,
No matter how hard I tried,
I put the knife back down on the desk,
And turned away,
So many things in my life,
What would be the point to end it all?
How much heart ache would be made?
For the selfish acts I would produce,
I cannot hide behind lies,
Cannot blame another but my own selfishness,
How did you make it through this life mom?
How many crisis, incidents and moments of anguish,
Yet you stuck it through,
Now that I tried to leave it all behind,
All I could picture was you.
Deep in my heart I didn’t want to die,
I did not want to give it a chance or try,
I lost sight of it all,
But momma you brought me back,
And now forty years later,
I thank you over you grave,
And give you the final goodbye.

Title: Tears

I feel it in my heart,
i feel it on my mind,
the tear slowly drops,
am i alive or am i blind,
the truth i cannot see,
as far as it seems,
alone i will be,
please free me from this torture,
please free me from this pain,
how did i try,
how did i die,
how many times,
i did i try to pry,
how many times alone,
how many times i have cried,
why,
why,
distant from my soul,
crashing the ground below,
tossed aside,
begging to die,
am i meant for this life,
am i meant to love,
am i meant feel the hurt,
i wish i was,
in your arms,
i dreamed about htis moment,
and thought it a million times,
i wish i can proove,
that i can stand so tall,
even though you dont,
i know i wont,
i wont hurt,
but the pain i feel,
now that your gone and outta my life,
i wish i wish i was free,
from your pain,
you inflicted me,
toss and missused,
i will will never love,
i will stand against it,
never again,
the pain is hard to face,
the pain,
will it ever leave,
i wonder,
wht does this,
whu did it happen to me,
why,
sorrow,
the pain will never die,
pain,
the tears,
they flow and make cry,
i am just a man,
how do express myself,
i do my best to,
seek the light,
and proove myself.
a light in the sky,
shows me the way,
perhaps i am wrong,
perhaps i should re thing the pain,
perhaps i should open my eyes awake,
stop this lie of my life,
perhaps.

Title: Jailed

Jailed - By Michael Darling

Blacken Rain falling down,
pounding my fist on the ground,
why did you have to leave me,
why did you have to go,
leave me alone in this world,
alone,
and wet,
staring endlessly at your tomb stone,
staring deep into my hands,
soils of blood,
from flesh,
from me,
from the dirt on the ground,
or scraping on the rock,
Why,
Why,
We were always around,
we were always with what's going down,
I loved you with heart,
I loved you with soul,
now apart I cannot live on,
what can I do now that your gone,
do you expect me to forget,
all I can think of is when we first met,
now that your gone,
I am alone,
never with a soul,
you had to go join the death toll,
it wasn't me I pleaded to the courts,
but they didn't believe me,
10 years I served,
10 years since it passed by,
10 years wishing you were still alive,
I will admit I have cried,
held a dagger and wish that it was me that died,
I wish you were here,
beside me,
inside me,
I tried to me be,
honest I did I tried to forget and live,
I went on a long trip,
I looked into another's eyes,
but all I could see was you,
what we had was true,
we shared our favorite color blue,
we were the perfect pair an even two,
the police didn't believe,
they could conceive,
the idea I was innocent,
who cares if they had my finger print,
another did this,
robbed me of what was mine,
now all I can do is treat your tomb as a shrine,
he took your life,
and sentenced mine,
to a jail filled with people,
who violated another for pleasure,
20 years I served,
20 years since it passed by,
20 years wishing you were still alive,
lock away and confined,
the key thrown away,
not being able to tell from night or day,
I remember the night,
we did have a fight,
I admit I slapped you,
but only because you struck first,
the neighbors saw,
the police came,
dragged to jail I was but realized the next day,
I am sorry for what happened,
I didn't mean to do it,
I love you,
you loved me,
this was how life was suppose to be,
out in the world living so free,
I did plea,
40 years I served,
40 years since it passed by,
40 years wishing you still were alive,

I cannot remember very well since last we met,
forgotten the touch of your hand,
forgotten the breath and your smell,
forgotten the way you looked at me when I was down,
all I can remember is butch,
all I can remember is confinement,
all I can remember is being violated,
40 years a bitch,
40 years violated,
40 years locked away,
tired and alone,
wanting to be free,
wanting to die,
and to be alive with you,
things I never thought possible,
smacking the grave I cry,
old as I am, near to my death,
I spent an eternity for something I didn't do,
I wish I could remember,
all those years for all the lies,
why was I framed,
or was I,
I loved you so much,
It is time I follow and be with you till the end,
time to forget the pain,
the lonely nights alone,
the roles of bitch in the cells,
the no visits from family,
time to die,
60 years since I last seen you,
60 years since I last felt you,
60 years since they said I murdered you,
60 years behind bars,
60 years a bitch,
60 years alone,
60 years of tears,
no one will know why,
no one will care why,
no one will seek why,
They will wonder one thing,
Why was the lost murder weapon here,
in my chest,
over your grave,
let them wonder,
for now I don't care,

Title: God hates me

God hates me,
Cursed my soul,
I screamed into the sky,
Calling him a fable,
Lightning shot down,
But I didn’t care,
So many problems happen in my life,
So much pain,
Why does he care?
I know he doesn’t,
Leave me alone,

God hates me,
He let my mother die,
He let me cry,
Every night,
I do not care if he knows,
I will scream it to his face,
Leave me alone!

God hates me,
What has he done to my life?
Why must I live like this?
What have I done?
So many days go by,
When I am alone,
It’s true,
End this life as quick as you can,

God hates me,
I see it every morning,
Can’t help these feelings,
Can’t fight these feelings,
I know it to be true,
I am stuck between it all,
The sickness of the night consumes me,
Drugs are all that comfort me,

God hates me,
I will tell you why,
I saw my life,
Pass me by,
Nothing accomplished,
And nothing done,
I will continue to live,
And die like a bum.

God hates me,
For several reasons,
The main one being,
I am not good enough,
I cry to myself,
And I will die to myself,
As long as he isn’t there,
I will not care,

God hates me,
Who am I to actually say?
People spend their lives in solitude and pray,
All it does is take their life away,
Deep down it hides,
The truth of their life,
Only dreams it is,
Cursed my life be,
Like the many before me,
God hates me.

Title: Distance between stars

I live for you,
I dreamed of you,
Never have I met someone so special,
Never have I met a star,
The heavens above,
And the devils below,
Weep at the mere fiasco,
Like spices and fire,
Spilt run and tobacco,
I saw your face in the sky,
I saw it in my mind,
Seeing you everywhere I go,
I smile and learn there is something else,
More to the world as it seems,
I learned more about myself,
I liked what I seen,
But there something I want,
I know it will never come true,
I know it’s foolish,
But the light at the end,
It what I crave,
The darkness will not breakthrough,
As long as I keep close to you,
Forever they try,
I fight it all back,
The tears form,
The pain clutches my heart,
But you take my hand,
And you tell me I am better,
I know what I must do,
I must fight,
I pick myself up,
I dust myself off,
The wind blows by,
The light turns to dusk,
I stare ahead,
I stare in the distance,
I hear you calling for far away,
I run to you,
I run with my heart,
I run as fast,
As I can,
I struggle for you,
I struggle to be,
The one to lie next to you,
Ahead of me,
You are,
Distant as the sun,
Distant from my arms,
I run to the edge,
I stare out,
One day I will make it,
So keep the dream in your heart.

Title: Blood

Blood - By Michael Darling Victims,
One by one,
Marching,
Down to there death,
Victim of the ghetto,
Victim of the night,
They slowly drop from the skies,
Landing softly,
Predicted by faith,
Predicted by scriptures of old,
Arising with night,
Setting with day,
Walking,
Stalking,
Ending lives,
Ending hopes,
The grasp,
The kiss,
The bite,
Sinking within,
Drawing from within,
Breaking the barrier,
The bonds of good and evil,
Revenge can be thought,
But only the thirst,
Hunt and the prey,
The sheep and the wolf,
Bound together in a war of dominance,
One side blind,
The other side ignorant,
Clashing together till one is exterminated,
Fear is the key,
Guidance is the source,
Stealth is the weapon,
Blood pours onto the floor,
A love that cannot be,
Or will ever be,
Soft heart and golden eyes,
A soft leaf in the river of blood,
Flowing down,
Hope,
Or a sign,
Of things to come

Title: About You

I thought of you,
As I starred outside,
I thought of you,
but I know it is not worth it,
You left me,
And moved on with your life,
You forgot,
How much I cared inside,
I did not try,
To tell you until you left my side,
By that time you never cared,
Because there was only tears in your eyes,
I tried so many times to tell you,
but the words were hard to say,
I tried so many times,
but it is hard either way,
you never could look me straight into my eyes,
cause the pain was so deep,
And the truth was never there,
there was never a time you really cared,
Why do I look back,
Why do I try to live my life,
I am confused about the words,
and the feelings deep inside,
There was a point,
when i knew,
where exactly i was to go,
but now i am so lost,
and losing control,
who knew the pain from this lost love,
would stalk me into the night,
and leave me alone,
who cares about you,
well,
I really do,
I just want to hold you,
and make love to you,
but late as it,
it will never come truth,
And to this day there is only thing left i do,
and that is sit in the darkness,
writing about you.